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Unimportant Midnight Ranting



Hi all, this is me, Feli, writing randomly while laying on my bed and do nothing except writing this blog.

I know this might sounds unimportant, but as I write this down, I supposed to do my 2000 words essay for my mid-term. But I do not know why, I cannot find the inspiration and motivation to write some more.

Instead, I ask myself. Why do I do this? For what sake? For an A from my lecturer? And the most important question is: Is that A really matter? For my GPA? Will this be useful in the future? Who the hell gonna read a dead-liner's essay, whose purpose is only to please its lecturer? Ain't nobody got time for that I guess.

Suddenly I remember, earlier this evening, I came to a meeting and the speaker said "Your GPA means nothing later in this jungle called life". That hit me, HARD. My realization started to sink in, that GPA means nothing after this. So why should I achieve something that will not mean anything? Will this struggle of making 2000 words essay gonna be worth it at the end?

Recalling this night event, suddenly I know why I cannot find my passion to write that fcking essay anymore.

Maybe because it is not important.
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