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A Lost Boy

He's always there. It doesn't matter where we are. The adults can't see him, he's too good at hiding from them. But us kids can. Occasionally he would smile and laugh our way before disappearing. Sometimes he would point towards us and whisper to the air. I might be hallucinating, but I swear I saw something sparkly buzzing around his ear. At night, the wind blows hard, and windows keep opening themselves. The orphanage's headmistress got so annoyed at first, and tried to nail them down. It didn't work, and eventually we got used to it. Once, I woke up at midnight, and saw him flying around the room chasing his shadow. I helped by pinning it with a dart. He looked at me and smiled, and pulled the shadow out of the room. I remember wondering whether my shadow can fly away as well and spent the next day keeping an eye on it. They all thought I was weird. I'm turning 14, and he comes less often. I'm afraid I'll stop being able to see soon. ...

Rationalizing the Marriage Institution

Prompt: Book Review Elizabeth Gilbert’s career rose with the popularity with her non-fiction work “Eat Pray Love. A book depicting her recovery journey post a messy divorce. Where she went on a trip to be able to come to terms with herself. In this book the story of Liz and Love continues. The couple who have vowed not to get married, both traumatize by their last are forced to get married if they were to stay together. This book is filled with Liz’ rationalization on what to expect and what to be cautious of stepping into the bonds of legal matrimony. She had emerged herself in extensive researched about the institution of marriage, to try to convince herself that this time around it would be fine. The research that she had done for herself are very well presented in this book, citing social scientists and exact publication, but it is also accompanied by the personal opinion of a modern woman. It spans from the concept of marriage in an isolated village in the mountai...

Loving Too Much To Lose

It never occurred to me that I would step over the line. I know this is wrong. My parents would freak out if they ever knew. I can already hear them in my head. "You're better than this. Don't go to that side." But I'm done. Months of restless nights, one after another. All my sweat, blood and tears, sacrificed for nothing. I'm tired of having to always come last. I'm exhausted from having to settle for the bare minimum. There's always someone better. There's always someone else who won over me. And when they're there, I ceased to exist. I am nothing but the smallest obstacle to those I consider my rivals, easily pushed aside. Not anymore. I can handle the heartbreak no longer. I knocked. The door swung to reveal someone who stared, then swung it wider. I guess I do look desperate. As I sat amongst pots, skulls, bird feathers and candles, he took a jar and sprinkled flower petals over me. He then sat down in front of me and smok...

I paused my Instagram for five days LOL

I think most of you guys already knew that I ‘fasted’ from Instagram a few weeks ago. I am warning you this writing is ironic and not going to inspire you to uninstall the app the time you finish to read this.  I planned to quit Instagram for seven days but I pathetically lost and only managed to do it only for five days. Originally, I did it because I felt like my life was a complete mess. I had this seriously huge pile of tasks waiting to be done but I just couldn’t finish them and all I did was scrolling through my phone. It was actually very frustrating and I just spontaneously deleted the application. The five days I’ve been through without Instagram is absolutely not life changing, that I can tell you. Lol. If there’s one thing to learn is it is about myself and how much I’m already consumed with that social media. For instance, when I was doing the smallest activity like eating out with my friends, I unconsciously grabbed my phone and wanted to update it to the social me...

What to do with US’ guns?

The proliferation of shooting cases in US, and worse, the shooting cases in schools where the perpetrators are mostly underage civilians has reached its peaked concern that something is in dire need to change regarding the gun ownership in the country. The debate, though, is not showing any sign a change is going to be made soon. Despite the fact that the country has lived to see how many victims- innocent young victims- to die in the cases, and the rest of them experiencing a horrifying trauma, it is pretty questionable why such reformation needs this long of a debate. However, there is an interesting idea that US should follow the step of Australia gun law reform. The Australia has managed to dramatically decrease its gun violence since a mass shooting is Tasmania 30 years ago. Their reformed gun law has become one of the most comprehensive firearm ownership standard in the world. One of the requirements includes 28 days waiting period in order for people to get a gun due to a ...

Panicking

When I was 5, I wanted to be everything. Like, everything . I wanted to be a pianist, ballerina, archaeologist, teacher, doctor, singer, actor, carpenter, gold medalist; you name it. When I was 10, I focused on my most apparent ability: speaking English. So I decided I wanted to be a translator when I grew up.  Failing that, I want to be an author. When I was 15, I realized there's too many people who are also able to speak English for a translator to be a lucrative job, and that I always got bored before finishing a story. So I got confused. At the very least there's one criteria: I want something that has to do with arts. Out of all the careers I thought of, being an architect sounds not only artistically challenging, but also cool because it's all about "clever engineering". So that's why I signed up for an Architecture major. Now I'm nearing my twentieth birthday, and honestly, all I want for my life is peace, quiet and freedom. It's amaz...